From the time I was little, I just wanted to be normal. I wanted to do whatever my peers were doing. By the time I was a teenager that want only intensified. However, it didn’t turn out that way. I was different and I was bullied badly because of it. Now years later, I know that my being different is good. I don’t want to be like everybody else. If I was like everybody else I wouldn’t have a life worth sharing with all of you. I want all of my scars, now, because they prove I was here and I thrived. I used to not want my scars, both physical and emotional, but now I know my scars and telling their stories can help others.
I want to live out my faith in an open and honest way. I refuse to use my faith as a weapon to hurt somebody else. I want everyone I come in contact with to feel seen, heard, valid and valued. There are two reasons for this: it’s what I want from everybody I come in contact with. Secondly, it’s what God wants from me. He loved the world enough to die. I can show everybody love because He loved me first. I’m his vessel and that’s my commission: love God and love everybody else. I want to show people who don’t believe what I do that nothing changes, with me, because we share different beliefs. I respect, love, and value them, period.
I want to be a light in this world. I am trying to be every day. It would be so easy to be angry at my Father for my condition and the state of the world. I don’t want to do that. I want to make the world better. I want to meet the needs of others that I can and pray for the ones that I can’t. Every time I post a new blog post my motive is to make the world better. I might not always reach my goal but I try. I’m still learning how to be the best blogger I can be. You guys are gracious enough to come along as I learn. I want to give hope, too. Thank you for letting me put everything I’ve said here into action. If you feel different than everybody else you know: know you’re not alone. I see you and I cherish your difference because the world needs you in it. I want you to know that I’m beside you cheering you on.