By I hear frequently I need to settle down and have babies. Okay, I want that. I’ve made that quite clear time & again. However, I am not “typical” in any way. It’s going to take a really special guy. I have the balance of a toddler, at best. My right hand is half a hand, on my best days. I fall. I over step & can’t catch myself, sometimes. I end up in the floor howling in pain, bawling. I don’t say this for sympathy. I say this for honesty. I go through more than most know because I don’t want to dwell or give my condition more power. I am tough as nails because I have to be. I seem unaffected, but I’m not. Some days, it sucks being me. That said, I love my life. I know I am a living, breathing, miracle.
I should have died as a newborn, but I didn’t. I know that’s because God had/has big plans for me. Some of those plans lie in academia, and some of them are through this work. I don’t know exactly what is is coming, but it’s gonna be crazy, and oh so beautiful.
I don’t want to talk about how I do, but I do. It has to do with the gift God saw fit to give me on both sides of my family tree. Who am I to argue with that? I can’t. I will use every one of my talents & gifts completely up until God is done with me. I will make everybody who loves me proud of me. When I find the guy that can handle me and is cool with everybody I consider family, we will figure out together how to balance our careers, and the family you so desperately tell me to have.
I am not typical & I won’t ever be. I actually see my different circumstances and challenges as a gift now. Why? If I were “normal “ I don’t think I’d have the story to tell that I have. I also know I wouldn’t have the testimony I have now and will continue to have as life goes on. If I weren’t me: would all of y’all be here reading my words or watching one of my videos? I tend to think not. Using my story and testimony to make the world better makes everything I’ve gone through/will go through worth it in my opinion.
You were born into the perfect family. And yes, your journey is different than other peoples, but still beautiful And rewarding. You have touched peoples lives in a way that has changed their perspective. So maybe this is your calling here on earth
It is certainly part of my purpose. I know that for sure. Thank you for your kind comment. ~Stacey