This is another blog post about my faith journey. I have said this before, but it needs repeating, apparently. Mama did not do anything to give me CP. There was nothing to suggest her pregnancy, with me, was problematic until she contracted Listeria. She and I are the only known people impacted by this outbreak. Doctors, specialists, and scientists from the CDC questioned her and tested her multiple times. Neither of us were supposed to survive and yet, we did.
When I say or type that I am a miracle: it is the truth. Still there are those professing my faith who tell my parents or myself horrible, vile, ugly, ideas about what I should do/be/what my parents should have done/do with me even now. I have been told I should have been aborted. If you read the opening paragraph: you know that is not true. People have told my parents and me that I should be hidden away from society. All these people profess faith in Jesus. They believe in Jesus because I/we have asked. It shakes me to my core until I remember the Jesus I believe in, love, serve, and follow.
The one in these verses taken from John 9:1-3: “As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. 2 His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”3 “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him.” The verses come from Bible Gateway.com just so everyone knows. I hang on to these verses and a few more to remind myself who Jesus is and who I am in His eyes and plan.
I believe I live because I am meant to change the world. Earning multiple college degrees and doing so with academic excellence combined with my gift for writing in the not-too-distant future will allow me to combine my political science training and writing my story down. Providing me a particularly good living and a very fulfilling, world changing, life simultaneously.
More on that reality at other times, but for now, it is enough to tell you all I am looking forward to using everything I am and have learned on my terms as part of my Father’s grand plan. Because of experiences detailed in this blog post and others: I refuse to use my faith as a weapon against anyone. I am called to love God and love people. That is the two most important commands Jesus gives. I want people to see my faith in everything I do and am. I want them to know that I love, value, respect, and find them valid because of my faith and the way Jesus first loved me.