By Yesterday, I told this blog’s Instagram that I had exciting news to share…soonish. I do with all of you as well…soonish. Whenever I make life changes or get an opportunity, good advice and counsel is vital to me. Overthinking is one of my specialties. The people who love and know me best are my sounding boards helping to tone down that tendency. I said yesterday I wanted to tell my chosen brother/journey partner/get his input before I share with the world. He deserves that from me and much more. When I originally pushed launch on this blog, I did not tell anybody until after I had. That included him. I think I texted him something to the effect of: Surprise! I just did a thing and gave him this website.
He was floored and proud of me. I knew he would be. We had been talking about me, sharing my story and life with the world for years. He told me it was important. That it would matter. I said, nobody will care. I promise. His response: “I care.” You have to say that. “No, I do not. You know I do not say stuff I do not mean…better than almost anybody else.” This pronouncement was usually accompanied by an eye roll (that he could not see) from me. I would sigh and then he would be less adamant for a minute. “What bothers you about the idea, Stace?” You know what does. “Probably but tell me anyway.” I am scared. I cannot do that. “I know and yes, you can, sis.”
Your faith in me is overwhelming and humbling. “I know you can do this.” That sounds like more than you are telling me. “It is. I think you were born and have been through everything you have and will continue to go through to tell your story.” You think or you know? Silence. You know what I cannot see and do not believe about myself quite yet. More silence. You do. I am sort of irritated at you, right now. You know that, right? Chuckling meets my ears. Answer me, please. “Yes, ma’am to all of it.” Do NOT call me, ma’am…right now. Full out laughter meets my ears, the kind I love from him so much, and never can hear enough of. Ugh. You are lucky I love you so much, brother. More laughter. You done yet? By this time, I am laughing too. “Seriously, will you try?” Yes, one day. “That is all I ask.”
He deserves to hear this from me before the world does. I am going to give him what he deserves this time. My success is mine, his, and God’s because our journey is always us and God. As soon as he knows, I look forward to sharing my exciting news with the world.
~Stacey
