By I apologize for the lack of blog posts the last couple of weeks. I owe you an explanation as to why. Being born with spastic quadriplegia, cerebral palsy means that I have too much muscle tone in my body at any given time. This means my muscles get tight often. About a month ago now., I woke up with a terrible muscle spasm in my back. I had to take an entire doctor prescribed muscle relaxer just to be able to get out of bed.
For the next few weeks, getting out of bed, took time and patience. I had to be gentle with myself and give myself grace because it was taking longer to heal the muscles that were spasming then typically I still do not know why I wish I did. I was so frustrated with myself thinking I had done something wrong to make my body feel like it was revolting against me. Turns out, I just needed to give myself time. Patience is not something I afford myself. To say I am my own worst critic would be a complete understatement.
My chosen family, and my parents were all wonderful and helping me get back to myself. My childhood physical therapist was an invaluable resource and friend. They all told me the same thing: you are going to be fine just be patient with yourself. Thankfully, they were right. I just had to keep believing that and getting up every day taking care of myself I had to not give up. I did not even when I wanted to, and believe me there were days I wanted to give up.
I am not exactly where I want to yet in terms of feeling like myself totally, but I feel comfortable enough to write about it. Taking you all in this journey to understand my condition, and continue to figure out how to thrive with it is incredibly healing for me. Continuing to document how I am feeling as time goes on is something that I intend to do for all of you. I feel like I am mostly back to thriving, but I still need to make some adjustments and figure some difficulty out which I will document in a leader blog post. I just wanted explain the absence of blog posts and tell you that sometimes, creating a full beautiful life means being patient with yourself and taking each day as it comes. I want to remind you that none of us have it all figured out. I hope that brings as much comfort to you as it did to me, and I look forward to continuing to document my journey for you all. Thank you for being patient with me. I appreciate you all. 
