By In full disclosure, I have a very difficult time letting others help me. When you have my condition or any other physical challenge people tend to underestimate you and what you can do. Underestimation, for me, makes my determination kick in. Telling me I cannot do something all but guarantees I’ll figure out a way to do whatever it is that I’ve been told I can’t. In addition, my independence is sacred to me because there are things I simply cannot do given my condition. All the things that I can do umm are empowering for me.
Since Labor Day my entire world has been turned upside down. That may seem like an exaggeration, but it isn’t I can assure each and every one of you. These circumstances require me to get uncomfortable in every aspect of my life. What do I mean? I’ve had to ask for more help than I’ve ever needed in my life. I’ve had to let people love me by helping me. Help in the form of asking questions when I don’t know the answer. Wearing my emotions on my sleeve, on a good day, and constantly as of right now means people have seen me cry when I would rather, they not. Normally I’m very selective about who gets to see me cry. Right now, it is impossible to be selective about who I cry in front of.
The difficulties are exquisitely painful and empowering at once. It is vital then I ask for help when I need it and allow people to help me when I ask. I struggle with both of those things. It is very humbling to realize that I cannot do everything I need to do every day on my own. Silver I feel very loved, but I have to not go into my comfort default mode of I’ve got it handled. I have to be honest about what I need and how I’m feeling so that I get the help I need and others want to give.
I must remind myself the only way we get through life well is by doing so together and then I will get to repay the kindness and the love going forward because life will inevitably give me opportunities to do that. I wanted to remind all of you I’m that truth as well which is why I wrote this blog post I hope it helps you to remember that we need each other in this life and not only is that okay but it was meant to be that way.
