By Last week I had a meltdown emotionally. There is no other word for it. I had been feeling really isolated from the people who know me best for a few weeks because we all got busy. The isolation also came from my family still dealing with circumstances that are hard. Thankfully, things are slowly getting better. It will take time though. I just started to cry hard and reached out to my brother and journey partner. He encouraged me to open up and tell him what was wrong. It spilled out once I started.
He listened with the practiced patience of a lifelong friend and chosen brother. If you think he has talk to me through many meltdowns in the past, you would be correct. After listening, he encouraged me to reach out to the rest of my chosen family and tell them what’s been going on. I had been dealing with all the hard circumstances by myself. It’s hard for me to open up sometimes because I don’t want to be a burden to anyone.
Taking the advice of my brother and journey partner, I sent a bunch of texts. It didn’t take long for me to get lots of messages that support and love. It made me realize that I should have reached out sooner. All my fears of being a burden were unfounded. My chosen family reminded me that the best way to get through the tough stuff of life is together. To do that, I have to actually let them in. We are not meant to go through life alone. We are meant to go through it with support from those that love us. I just forgot that for a while. This blog post is meant to be part of my being honest with you all and to remind you to let the people who love you in and help you when you need it.