I overthink a lot. As a product of this: I live in my head. Sometimes, what I overthink explodes out of my head in ways I don’t like. I cry for, seemingly, no reason. My temper shows up when I don’t want it to over nothing. My tone spikes because of my incessant overthinking. Sometimes,
Category: Chosen Family
When I was a high school freshmen: I had a stalker. He was a senior. He was a big guy. I am petite. He rode my bus because he had his own condition. He was quite scary. He would show up everywhere I was it seemed. A lot of girls my age would be flattered
My hometown is small. When I was growing up we had one stop light. When Dairy Queen came to town: it was a huge deal. Growing up in such a small town was wonderful. However, it had its drawbacks. I felt like I was the weird, quiet, determined, studious, girl in the power chair. It
In honor of International Women’s Day: I want to talk about the women in my life who help and expect me to thrive. Mama: my mama is my champion and friend. She is my warrior. She also has no time for excuses from me. She raised me to love God, and everyone else. She taught
My presidential fellowship year brought with it lots of internal pressure. I wanted to represent my mentor, university, myself and everyone who loves me well. Every one else had no doubt I would, but I definitely did. I remember having many conversations with my chosen brother/journey partner about the pressure I felt. At some point
When I was 16 I had to take geometry. I have visual perception problems so I struggled a lot. I almost failed and wouldn’t have been able to go to college. I was able to get an outside tutor who instantly knew my problems went deeper than math. I’ll never forget the first session with
I read an op-ed by a mother of a daughter who uses a chair like I do today. She was telling the world her child wasn’t an inspiration merely because she existed. I read that & cheered. Then I read the comments on the piece. Holy moly were people brutal to this woman! I couldn’t
First of all: I have a non-update update on my newest chair’s repairs. I called my wheelchair provider Tuesday, and they called back yesterday morning. The receptionist talked to someone at Invacare. Invacare is waiting on their supplier to send the mount kit to them. When they have it: they will send it to my
Have any of you had a day or days where you feel completely unloved, invisible, or not good enough? Yeah, me too. Today was one of those. My empathetic self was in overload all day long. What do I do on days like today? I have several coping mechanisms I use. They are in no
Having CP isn’t easy. Anyone who says otherwise is lying. I found ways to cope with the really awful days and weeks. I have spastic quad CP, which means I have too much muscle tone in my body. It also means all four limbs are involved. The left side of my brain sustained more damage.